Monday, 9 June 2025

REVIEW: Let Them Stare by Jonathan Van Ness and Julie Murphy

Pages: 336
Format: Hardcover
Publisher: Storytide
Genre: Contemporary, Fantasy, LGBT
Release Date: May 20th 2025
TW: homophobia, conversion therapy

Sully is ready to get out of Hearst, Pennsylvania. With a fashion internship secured, the gender-nonconforming eighteen-year-old is trading in their stifling small town for the big city. Sully even sells their beloved car, to Bread—er, Brad—the most boring (and maybe only other) gay kid in town. 

When Sully’s internship goes up in smoke, they’re trapped in Hearst with no cash—and no car. Desperate, they go to the thrift store, their personal sanctuary. There, they discover a vintage bag—like "put this baby in an airtight case at the MET" vintage. If Sully can authenticate it, the resale value would be enough for a new life in the city. 

But when they begin to investigate, Sully finds themself haunted. Literally. With the ghost of Rufus, a drag performer from the fifties with no memory of how he died standing—no, floating—in their bedroom, Sully’s summer has a new 1) help this ghostly honey unlock his past and move on and 2) make bank—after all, the Real Real doesn’t take poltergeist purses. 

With Rufus in tow, and Brad—who’s looking pretty scrumptious these days—playing chauffeur, Sully delves into the history of the town they’re so desperate to escape. Only to discover that there might be more to Hearst than they ever knew.


I’m someone who loves a good magical realism story, so a ghost popping out of a handbag was always going to be my cup of tea. Whilst I adored how perfectly bizarre this story was, the heart of it was a beautiful message about acknowledging the struggles of the queer people who came before us and learning to continue the fight to make things better for those who come after us. 

This story is also a perfect example of how quickly plans can change in life. That confusion we feel if something gets switched up and we have to reorganise our plans for the future is so daunting, especially after graduating. I love how the story dealt with the dreaded ‘not knowing what comes next’ stage in our lives. 


Sully is my ideal type of main character: hilarious, adorable, and figuring out life. They’re valid in their feelings over how they are treated in their hometown, but they also go on a journey to accepting their owns flaws along the way. (Though, personally, I think Sully had every right to be mad at everyone and I support them in letting out their rage.) 

Is my favourite character the ghost? Absolutely. I love Rufus with ever fibre of my being. My heart ached for him and the life he deserved but never got to have. The bond between him and Sully is just adorable and they did make me cry some very real tears in the end. 


  • The sweetest romance. Who doesn’t love a couple who bond over figuring out the mystery of a handbag ghost inhabitant? 
  • Tea spilling. You never know when some absolutely shocking info is about to be dropped. ☕
  • Learning to love the place you came from. I was one of those people who was desperate to get out of my hometown as quickly as I could, yearning for a place more accepting. But the older I got, the more I came to appreciate it’s layers. I adored getting to see Sully experience that feeling. 


This is such a sweet, funny, and heart-warming read with an ending that will leave you blubbing happy tears. It’s a perfect addition to your shelves if you’re looking to pick up some new books for Pride Month too!

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Saturday, 31 May 2025

DESKTOP WALLPAPERS: June 2025

Happy June, or as I prefer to say, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!! It's also my birthday month. Kinda fate that I was born during Pride, actually. For this month, I've designed some special pride flag wallpapers for you all. 

Be Proud Wallpaper

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Rainbow / Lesbian / Gay / Bi / Pan / Trans / Non Binary / Ace


I've tried to include as many as I can, but if your flag isn't here then feel free to drop me a comment and I can whip one up for you real quick.

Foxglove Wallpaper

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With Calendar / Without

I still have some of my usual photography shots for you, though! Here's some foxglove flowers I snapped pics of in the park recently. I'm obsessed with these lil ladies. 

Woodland Bridge Wallpaper

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With Calendar / Without


This was taken at Dibbinsdale, a beautiful little nature reserve not too far from where I live. It's one of my favourite places to wander during the warmer months. 

The Gardens Wallpaper

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Finally, here's a quick pic I shot at some gardens near my home. 

I'm super excited for the next few weeks because I actually have some exciting plans for once. I'll be visiting London at the end of the month so hopefully I'll get some pics for the July wallpapers. I hope you all have a wonderful June!

Thursday, 1 May 2025

DESKTOP WALLPAPERS: May 2025

You know what month it is...


May is a mixed bag for me because I love this time of year, but it's when the heat starts getting more real. I'm on SSRIs for my mental health and whilst they help me in so many aspects of my life, they also make it super difficult to regulate body heat. So, I struggle to cope on overly-warm days. It does mean that I try to squeeze in as much photography as possible before the summer months, though. Which means grabbing some great shots for wallpapers!

Bluebell Wallpaper

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With Calendar / Without



I adore bluebell season, and we get SO many of them in our back garden. Since we only have a small, mostly concrete yard, the bluebells always make things look pretty and more full.

Butterfly Wallpaper

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With Calendar / Without

BUTTERFLY SEASON!! I love seeing more and more butterflies appear throughout May. Thankfully, my dog, who chases quite literally anything, is fine with letting them fly around the garden and him. 

Old Bookshop Wallpaper

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It's about time I started making some book-related wallpapers. This is a book blog, after all. This is a shot I took at my favourite second-hand bookstore in my city. They have an adorable Sci-Fi and Fantasy corner which I could sit in for hours. 

Emily Brontë Quote Wallpaper

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To wrap things up, here's an Emily Bronte quote about May that I put together for the more minimalist wallpaper enjoyers. 


I hope you enjoy my little selection of wallpapers for May! If you have any suggestions for June, then please let me know in the comments. It's my birthday month so I want to go wandering with my camera to celebrate! ðŸŒ¸

Sunday, 23 March 2025

rereads and regrets│SMALL THOUGHTS #3


It's time for my first series of mini reviews in 2025! I've had a good start to the year when it comes to my reading goal - I'm ahead by three books. But I know how quickly it can go downhill when life gets in the way, so we'll just have to see how it goes. Here are my thoughts on some of the books I've been loving and...no so loving lately. ðŸ˜¬

The Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater 


It is freezing in the churchyard, even before the dead arrive. 

Every year, Blue Sargent stands next to her clairvoyant mother as the soon-to-be dead walk past. Blue herself never sees them—not until this year, when a boy emerges from the dark and speaks directly to her. 

His name is Gansey, and Blue soon discovers that he is a rich student at Aglionby, the local private school. Blue has a policy of staying away from Aglionby boys. Known as Raven Boys, they can only mean trouble. 

But Blue is drawn to Gansey, in a way she can’t entirely explain. He has it all—family money, good looks, devoted friends—but he’s looking for much more than that. He is on a quest that has encompassed three other Raven Boys: Adam, the scholarship student who resents all the privilege around him; Ronan, the fierce soul who ranges from anger to despair; and Noah, the taciturn watcher of the four, who notices many things but says very little. 

For as long as she can remember, Blue has been warned that she will cause her true love to die. She never thought this would be a problem. But now, as her life becomes caught up in the strange and sinister world of the Raven Boys, she’s not so sure anymore.
It’s been almost a decade since I read The Raven Cycle for the first time and with the graphic novel coming out this summer, I’ve been missing the gangsey like crazy. So, I thought it was a perfect time for a reread! Up until a few years ago, I wasn’t big on rereads, especially when it comes to a beloved series. I think part of me is always a tiny bit worried that I won’t love something as much the second time around. But something shifted a while and since then I’ve done…um, too many rereads if I’m being honest. 

Needless to say, I loved reading them again just as much this time around. If not more because I didn’t have to stress out about what would happen next. I’m so grateful to these four books because they definitely helped shaped me into the type of reader I am today.

Royal Rating: 

Kamikaze Boys by Jay Bell 


My name is Connor Williams and people say I’m crazy. But that’s not who I am. They also think I’m straight, and mean, and dangerous. But that’s not who I am. The stories people tell—all those legends they whisper at school—they don’t mean a thing. Only my mother and younger brother matter to me. Funny then that I find myself wanting to stand up for someone else. David Henry, the cute bookish guy who always keeps to himself, is about to get his ass beat by a bunch of dudes bigger than him. I could look away, let him be one more causality of this cruel world… But that’s not who I am. 

Kamikaze Boys, a Lambda Literary award-winning novel, is a story of love triumphant as two young men walk a perilous path in the hopes of saving each other.
I’ve had this one on my TBR for a couple of years after it was recommended to me by a bookseller. I hate to admit it, but it wasn’t the right recommendation. I did not vibe with this book. It was originally published in 2012 I think? But this version was printed in 2019. It’s definitely a product of it’s time, so maybe I would have enjoyed it more in my John Green days? 

2025 me was far too irritated by these characters, and the plot just fell completely flat. I also had some issues with the way the book depicted mental health facilities, too. One of the main characters ends up in one against his will after An Event, and I know some of these places can be awful and more detrimental to a person than helpful, but this just came across as harmful fearmongering

Royal Rating: 

Angels Before Man by Rafael Nicolas 


A queer retelling of Satan's fall that's part cozy coming of age and part fast-paced tragedy, with a little love story in between – 

In an eternal paradise, the most beautiful angel, Lucifer, struggles with shame, identity, and timidity, with little more than the desire to worship his creator. 

It isn't until the strongest angel, Michael, comes into his life that Lucifer learns to love himself. Along the way, their friendship begins to bloom into something else. Maybe the first romance in the history of everything. 

But this God is a jealous one, and maybe paradise is not paradise.
Oh BOY. I came across this series by accident, and it turned out to be the best kind of accident possible. THESE BOOKS ARE,,,,,, EVERYTHING. It took me a little while to get into the first one, but after a while it had me fully hooked. 

Word of warning though, these books are extremely dark and feature an extensive list of trigger warnings. So definitely check those out before even considering delving into this world. It’s a rewarding process if you do, though. 

Royal Rating: 

The Golden Raven by Nora Sakavic 


Jeremy Knox is no stranger to damage control, but his last season on an Exy court is off to a disastrous start. The relentless crusade against his newest teammate threatens the haven he and his friends have worked so hard to build. He promised Jean a fun senior year, but tragedy and ugly truths make every step forward an uphill fight. 

Jean Moreau promised the USC Trojans a championship trophy, and he intends to deliver. Granted, it would be significantly easier if they’d slide off their high horses and throw a few elbows on the court. Their steadfast refusal to do things his way is nearly as aggravating as their unwanted affection, but maybe they’re not the ones that need to change. 

With so many ready to drag him down, how can he learn to fly?
It’s not to early to pick your fave book of the year, is it? Because we all know nothing is going to come close to this for me. All For The Game is my series of all time and I still can’t quite believe we’re getting more stories after all these years. 

Getting to see Jean’s healing process is so important to me. This is the second book in the trilogy that revolves around Jean and Jeremy, and I loved it just as much as the first book. Again, I had no idea what to expect, but it still managed to deliver everything I wanted. 

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They’re just some of the books I’ve been reading so far this year! With rereads and books I expected to love before even picking them up, I’ve been rating most of them five stars and I regret nothing. 

What books have you loved recently?

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